I had a fun time yesterday mountain biking with the Sunday Sinners! I feel so strong on my bike this summer. Honestly, I haven't felt this strong in a long time, my BF ( best friend ) Gary says 10 years and I think he's right. I feel more in my body and more like myself than I ever have. It's awesome! I have done some serious work on myself this past year. Diving in to look at some old patterns and deep wounding and really allowing myself to go there and do the work to heal. I have lightened my load emotionally and I really feel it in my physical body and in my attitude. My creative energy is amazing and I am loving life. This really isn't an ad for yoga but yoga is it for me. My practice, my teacher's and my studio are all an amazing gift in my life. Yoga really helps me to connect to myself and to what is real. I had the opportunity to sit by Rifle Gap and enjoy my meditation practice numerous times this past week. As I was driving home I noticed this rather amazing shift in my perspective, everything appeared to be more clear. The colors were brighter, the shapes more defined like my internal lens had been cleaned and I was now seeing through new clear lenses. This is the beauty of the practice. As I sit I watch my breath I hear my mantra in the back ground and I just watch and allow my thoughts to move through. It seems simple. It is. Not necessarily easy though and so an amazing tool for processing and digesting life. The results are clear seeing. Last month in our Women's Healing Circle Erin was sharing how what we say isn't necessarily true. What we say is a manifestation of our thoughts and emotions and generally we tend to believe that all of this is true. We tend to see through our own set of lenses that have been clouded over by our past experiences, beliefs, judgments etc. If all of this isn't true then what is? Exactly! What is is true. This moment is happening and it is beautiful. Even when it doesn't feel beautiful it is, even when it hurts, even when we hate it - beautiful. Ram Das, one of my favorite spiritual teachers, teaches us to love everything. When you have a dark thought, the kind that doesn't serve you in any way, love that thought. When you have pain, could be physical or emotional, love that pain. Love it all because as Rumi says in The Guest House - it has been sent from beyond.
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice.
meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.
Be grateful for whatever comes.
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
My spiritual name is Sivakami, which means... one who desires transformation and one who transforms desires. I live in Rifle, Colorado where I teach yoga, create art and love life. I would love to hear your comments.